Acceptance? Humilty? Regret?

I have been idealistic my whole life thinking I could have anything if I but believed but on this day I am willing to settle for less and be happy and grateful for it. I would rather have the lowest degree of celestial glory then none at all. I am willing be just an angel to the lord and never make it to god hood with an eternal companion. I will accept the least rather than none at all. This is not despair or unhappiness this is acceptance or maybe this is humility, maybe its regret or maybe its reality. Whichever Im there and accepting of whatever may come.